7/25/05: fish are jumping, and the cotton is high...

As I noted in my first post, I'll be copying and pasting some blog entries from my myspace blog onto this one. If you know me and are confused by what you read--i.e., if it doesn't jibe with what you know to be true about my present-day life, then check the date of the original posting. That may answer your question. (For instance, in the blog below, I mention kissing a couple different boys "this" summer. "What? But Janet's been with Jim for over a year!" you may exclaim. Of course I have. It's 2007 now. This blog below's from 2005. End of explanation.)

July 25, 2005 - Monday

12:22 AM - fish are jumping, and the cotton is high... Current mood: awake My summer is about three weeks away from being over, and still I feel I have nothing accomplished. This is entirely untrue, of course: I've caught lightening bugs, gone tubing on the Itch-me Touch-me, visited GHP, gone hiking & swimming with Tamara, drunk lots with various local and out-of-state friends, had two family reunions, and eaten many a hot dog (though not as many as B. Barfield is wont to have). I've gotten to kiss a couple people in the past couple of months, but they've either not stuck around or I've not wanted them to. My hopes for a golden summer fling are dashed, but in their place are numerous crushes and lots of girls' nights out that I won't soon forget. As we speak, one of my barely-teenage cousins is lamenting over her boy troubles, explaining to me that she's been crying her eyes out all night. This reminds me of situations I've had to coach friends through in the last months (years!) of my life and of my own reluctance to be in a relationship that will be characterized by these squabbles and minor weekly heartbreaks. My parents' amazingly healthy marriage has been both a blessing and a curse: they have taught me what I deserve and what a good relationship should look like, but in knowing this I've blocked off some potentially fun but rocky dating situations. I'm frequently reminded that I'll receive my due reward someday, but for now I just want to make out!! Come on, boys. I HATE dating games but am wondering if I might start having to use them, because my say-it-like-it-is tactics aren't exactly working out well. Any feedback or advice???