2/16/06 - ow, part 9,423,401

February 16, 2006 - Thursday

10:54 PM - ow, part 9,423,401 Wednesday: Migraine without headache meant that I stayed in all day, was sick to my stomach, and didn't realize I was having a Migraine episode until it was too late to take meds. With all the reading I do on this obnoxious disease, you'd think I'd retain the part that focuses on how you can have a Migraine episode without head pain, rare as it is for me. Grrr. Wasted a day, missed a meeting with Dr. H. and a coffee date with Lily. And THAT can piss a girl off. Thursday: Went to bed at 4:30 AM, woke again at 7:30 or 8 to finish (i.e., begin) my paper for my Intelligence & Achievement class. Still felt icky but at least a bit better. Swear I lost 33 pounds on Wednesday what with the inability to digest food. Stupid nausea. Had a productive day...until about 30 minutes ago. Crackbaby & Baby Rhodes were over, helping me blow up balloons and get everything RED-y, so to speak. (This party is going to be sooo hot.) Was it the sudden lack of stress? The tiredness? The infamous "cycle"? The helium I ingested to entertain Shawn on the phone? In any case, the pain has creeped up. Beck is now singing, "Her left eye is lazy," and that's how my eyeball is feeling. Lazy but pierced with a warmed-over icicle. Took some meds but am not too hopeful about their ability to remedy this situation. I feel like an overwhelmed child so much of the time--I get so worked up and wonderfully excited about what's going on in my life, and I end up having a tantrum in my brain, a tantrum of dilated and constricted blood vessels that marks the infamous Migraine disease. The paper, the presentation, the party, the Bling show tonight, the letters I have to write, the babysitting jobs I must balance, the research I must finish for Dr. H., the birthday presents I must send, blah blah blah. Just ended up making me sick instead of doing what I used to do when I was little. Wish I could do that instead--now I'd be whining and crying and having my parents comfort me, knowing that, as usual, little Janny had just put too much on her plate. Let's hope that a little Beck and painfully expensive pain medication kicks in by 12:30, when I aim to get out of here for the sure-to-be-mind-blowing Bling the Children Back Home! show. I'm not as moody as I sound right now. Really. Just a little disappointed in my malfunctioning brain. Currently listening : Midnite Vultures By Beck Release date: 23 November, 1999