November 28, 2005 - Monday
 | 10:38 PM - a return to hormonal adolescence... Whenever it's time for me to end a vacation with my parents, I get so incredibly tudey and on the verge of tears that I feel as if I'm 16 again--wanting to rage at my dad for asking me to help him put up Christmas lights when I'm CLEARLY busy packing, being so quick to talk back to my mom when she is just reminding me (albeit in her occasionally pushy way) to put my dishes in the dishwasher next time.
I'm not sure why saying goodbye to my parents & sister is always so hard for me. I'll also never be sure why I feel weird crying in front of them when they know me better than anyone else in the world. Is it because I know how sad they'll be to see my tears?
Same thing goes for my headaches. When I have a migraine, I'll sooner snap at my parents than tell them I'm sick (again). I dread the look on my mom's face when she hears that my illness is going nowhere; I can't stand my dad's "Oh, honneeee--no headaches!"
Why have I suddenly begun to use this myspace blog as an outlet? Quite embarrassing, in ways. I worry about myself, I truly do. Perhaps this is what we are driven to when we're days behind on school work and our flights are cancelled.
 | Currently listening :
Trouble
By Ray LaMontagne
Release date: 14 September, 2004 | |
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